Yeah, I know how that sounds.
When I'm getting to know people, or even when I know them already, I somehow have this vision, this idea in my head that they are perfect in all the ways I imagine them to be.
They are the friend who is selfless. The boyfriend who knows everything about me and has memorized every word I ever spoke.
People that I let into my life, closer than a co-worker or acquaintance, I feel like they're perfect. And I get mad when they're not.
I get mad when the friend who is a perfect parent is grumpy and short with her kids.
I get mad when the boyfriend forgets I already told him I don't like X, Y, Z and here he is all excited about X, Y, Z for dinner.
I know this is not realistic. I know no one is perfect. But I still get angry and frustrated and hurt when people are less than I believed them to be.
And I feel like it just continues the cycle of me feeling like I'm always being let down by people.
I wonder just how crazy in the head this makes me....
I know this is often how I feel about people when they 'let me down', a by-product of wanting to see the best in people. Which I suppose is a little crazy since no one is perfect, but it is always disappointing when people do something that goes against the image you have of them in your mind.
ReplyDeleteI am sure it is a feeling people have about me all the time too, I guess we all just need to train ourselves to not be so critical or idealistic. I am not sure really since I can't seem to prevent myself from falling into the same situation over and over again. :)
You and every "Twilight" fan ;)
ReplyDeleteI used to be like this all the time, and would "cut" people out who disappointed me numerous times and let me down.
ReplyDeleteI realised that was going to affect me more than them, as I would end up with very little friends!
So now I've learnt to lower my expectations, or don't have any at all - and am surprisingly surprised by how some people step up :)
Totally Likalia...
ReplyDeleteTwilight fans are crazy too? Or they're disappointed that Edward was so perfect?
I wish I knew how to not have expectations, it's a concept I can't quite figure out.