I've told everyone I'm fine, but that's not really true.
I mean, I'm not devastated or anything like that, but it's still upsetting. You just don't (or, ok *I* just don't) expect your ex to go off and live happily ever after.
And I really didn't expect it from Smith.
Or maybe I did and it just hurts that he didn't want to live happily ever after with me.
So I'm a little down in the dumps and trying to figure it all out.
And I forgot to wish you all a Happy B.C. day, so, yeah. Hope you had a good one.
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I'm sorry Victoria :(
I remember the first time I heard that one of my exes was getting married. He was my first-ever boyfriend and he was a shitty boyfriend, but it took me a really long time to realize that. He would never want to spend much time with me, never wanted to hold my hand or kiss me in public, never told me anything of importance about his life. But I wanted him to.
And then all of a sudden 3 years later I heard he was getting married. I was way over him by that point, but it bummed me out because I wondered why this girl was good enough for him to share a life with, but I wasn't.
Yeah, that's totally what it is. Why is someone *else* good enough if I wasn't? It's like, I reserve the right to have turned you down because you're not good enough for me, not the other way around! *sigh*
Oh well.
Oh yes, my X got married a couple of weeks ago and I was okay with it. However, when he emailed me at 2 am to tell me they were engaged, I had a minor melt-down. I have since come to realize that she is more than welcome to him. But it took me 4 years to get over him (don't freak out, we were together for 7).
Awwwww.... *hugs*
This news really bums me out too. It's not even my life, yet I feel Smith owes us both a big explanation! ;(
{hugs}
:)
Thanks Y.
I guess everybody has their role in life. It really sucks that "rubbing it in" is in the Ex's job description. Well, you're somebody's ex too. I hope that someday soon, you get to do the "rubbing it in" part and have a guy that makes you happily forget how much time you've actually been together.
Like my good friend once told me when I was a big mess (bigger than what I am now) a while back, "a relationship only needs to work just once to make it right." His way of saying "don't lose hope."
Here's to better days.
Ciao.
Awww, thanks. :)
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