Wednesday, 24 April 2013
Self: This is never going to work and/or last.
Self: Oh hush... just trust.
Self: Um. No! Because clearly it's not going to work out in the long run and probably I'm just wasting my time right now and will waste who knows how much more time waiting to see how things play out with Vancouver.
Self: You don't know that. You don't know anything. Maybe things will work out beautifully. Maybe he'll be back in the Summer. Maybe you two will get to see each other every now and then. Maybe being apart will make you stronger and you'll both want to make it work no matter what.
Self: Or not. Maybe he'll go over there and meet the girl of his dreams and dump me and I'll feel like a chump.
Self: Or maybe he'll miss you just as much as you miss him and he'll do what he can to come back. Or maybe you'll meet the guy of your dreams and the two of you will sadly break things off.
Self: NO WAY! Because I won't be looking for another guy because I'll be clinging on to this relationship that clearly isn't worth clinging on to because if it was, he wouldn't be leaving!
Self: Well, I don't think that particularly makes sense, but you know that what's meant to be will be and that everything's going to be ok in the end, right?
Self: NO! I DO NOT KNOW THAT AND I HAVE BEEN ALONE FOR SO LONG AND WHY AM I LOSING THIS THING NOW JUST WHEN I GOT IT?
Self: It's all going to be ok.
Self: No. It's not.
Self: Yes it is.
Self: No it's not!
Self: Just trust.