Monday, 27 October 2014
Last week was exhausting (work related) and I had a few nights over the past few days that included me in bed by nine. And sleeping for ten, eleven hours.
I'm sure it's partly the change in seasons and weather and whatnot, but it's also partly life right now.
Work, although I don't talk about it it exhausting and draining.
Supporting Jason is mentally and emotionally exhausting. Don't really know what to do about that. We have some fun times hanging out here and there but they're few and far between and there's a lot of draining stuff in the in-between.
The idea, however, of dating and trying to find a new partner is even more exhausting and so it's not as if that thought fills me with hope and delight.
I was reminded this weekend that it's the time of year to get flu shots and I'm ironically feeling too tired and drained to even get myself to the doctor for one.
I know this means I should be taking extra special care of myself and eating extra well and all that good stuff since I am drained and exhausted in all ways, but all I want to do is lie on my couch under my blanket and not do anything.
I'm aware of my physical health and keeping a decent balance there, but the emotional stuff and drain is harder to balance. Not feeling like I have a whole lot to pick me up right now and that can be a negative cycle if you're not careful. Too tired to do anything that would make me less tired etc etc
So I guess I'll just keep putting myself to bed early and doing the best I can with what I have and pushing myself to write and shoot and draw and stuff.
Is there any way we can not do the time change thing this year by the way?