Thursday, 6 February 2020
Labels And Names
I bring this up because that doctor retired, so I don't have her opinion on what might have changed, because I'm pretty sure things have changed.
Like, yes, I'm kind of low these days and I think "winter blues" is part of that, but I don't think I would be considered clinically depressed anymore. I for sure get slumps, and low days and times of depression I think? But not the way it was. Cool.
And with the anxiety (anxieties???) I know that's still there, but it's shifted a little and I have more breathing room most of the time. I think I even said to a counsellor type that my panic attacks weren't quite a long or as devastating as they were. But they're still there. And I still struggle with a lot of things I am not used to struggling with, and I still struggle with things that I would really rather not.
I bring this up because I feel like my old doctor might have done a 'retest' for lack of a better term. A re-assessment to see where I'm at. I guess I could go do some online quizzes or something but it's more sort of a general wondering... what's still getting to me... where am I still really struggling. What labels and names might have been erased from the top of my file... and what is still there.
I dunno man, this is still all pretty weird, you know?
Update: I wrote this post and then went and did some online screenings and I'm a little bummed that I still hit all of the markers for most of the anxiety disorders/issues my doctor initially listed. Sigh.