Oh Come On!

I really needed the down time this weekend, but it seems my brain had other plans for me.  Sigh.

I let myself "sleep in" both days and although it didn't keep me in bed all that late, it did apparently give me bad dreams.

Not quite nightmares, nightmares are horrific, but stress dreams or something.  Enough to make it miserable to stay in bed and attempt sleep and enough to make me feel un-rested and unhappy in the mornings.  Sigh.

The Saturday morning bad dream was sort of me picking on me?  In the dream the "new girl" at work (I dunno) asked if she could stay with me.  She'd give me $300 a month and I could really use that money so I said sure.  But then as we went about our day I realized this meant I would have no privacy and I'd be stuck in my bedroom as she'd have the livingroom/couch and I started to panic because I didn't want her to live with me anymore but I was too afraid to be honest with her and tell her no and that I'd changed my mind.  So the dream was this horrible panic feeling of having said yes to something and then not wanting to upset the other person and so yeah, my brain was picking on me and my tendency to make myself uncomfortable for others.  Sigh.  So Saturday morning wasn't good and I didn't feel rested.

Cue Sunday morning...

On Saturday, we'd had a tsunami advisory.  Weird, right?  And so yeah, over the day I watched videos of waves hitting different parts of the world.  Here, we were told to stay away from the beaches, and many of them were closed and patrolled.  They didn't expect big waves here but strong tides and currents and "waves" of a sort.  Tongo, where the volcanic eruption (in the ocean) occurred got badly hit, and places in California had video of strange swells making their way down rivers and things.  

So my Sunday morning dream, I was with a friend (no idea why her truly!) and we were at an event (?) somewhere and they called us all out of the meeting room to tell us the tsunami was coming.  (Apparently they can be a lot more slow moving across the ocean than I knew and the waves can keep coming... in... waves...) So my friend and I ran up to my room (was in a hotel I guess?) which was my childhood bedroom (oh yeah the Saturday dream I lived with my parents but my apartment as well) and on a high floor so no concern for flooding.  And my friend was quite stressed so she fell asleep, but I was looking out the window and it started to snow and then the water came and so I woke her up "it's snowing and the water is here" and it was just like stressful.  So again, not exactly a nightmare (thankfully) but so not restful and I'm missing the deep sleeps I'd hoped for this weekend.