Me Versus Me!

Sometimes on my non-work days I have sort of an argument with myself in bed in the mornings.  As in... part of me wants to sleep in (and by "sleep in" I mean, I'll maybe make it til 8:30, but that's still two hours later than a work day wake up!) and part of me wants to get up at a fairly normal time and not "ruin" my sleep habits.

It's funny.  I used to be a champion sleeper-inner.  Like, famous for it!  When I was a teen I'd pull days when I'd sleep til noon, easy (well, weekends I mean).  Mornings used to suck for me, I know I've probably talked about it here.  But on days off/weekends, I'd sleep in til 10 or 11 easily, all the time.  Just... sleep sleep sleep!  Ahhhhhhh.

But... it wasn't always my favourite.  Especially after the non-weekend days when I'd have to try to force myself up and gah.  So I started working on my wake up routines and times and I've made lots of changes over the last few years and since I went back to work, I get up fairly "easily" most mornings, much earlier than I ever have before.  (I've found it helps on a work day to have an hour or so of *me* time in the mornings before I have to leave for work... rather than what I used to do which was hate waking up and leaving it til the last moment and then basically having tea, throwing on clothes and leaving within maybe half an hour of crawling out of bed.)

So I'm aware that these "easier" mornings are a really good thing for me in a number of ways and I'm also aware that when I start messing with my sleep schedule it can really go sideways.  So I'll sometimes have these little arguments... like... "ok, I really want to sleep as long as I possibly can today."  "Well, I get that but... then you'll not fall asleep at a decent time tonight and that'll push you back even more and then by Monday you'll have a crap sleep and bad wakeup so..."  "Well, yes but it's so cozy and I'm sleepy and it's still pretty early.."

And some mornings I'm up on non-work days before 8 anyway.  Most mornings it's 8:30.  But this past weekend I slept in til 9:30 - the latest I have in ages really.... and I feel like between that and some late night energy I kind of borked up my sleep schedule more than I'd like.  

Anyway... I feel like I value not-horrible mornings enough that if this week/weekend is nasty, I'll try not to repeat it.  But man... that immediate pleasure/instant gratification of not waking up when I don't "have" to... that's hard to ignore, you know?