Ahhhhh

I just had two weeks off and I feel great.

And by two weeks "off", what I mean is completely off.  No nothing.  No work, no commitments, and no gal danged appointments!  I had nowhere to go and nowhere to be.  (Ok I did have one doctor appointment follow up that happened during that time but it was a phone call so I was able to do it at home in comfort!)

During this time, I had some amazing sleeps (a couple, they felt life altering!) and I had a lot of days where I felt happy.  Happy and content and good.  I had one day (last week? I think?) that was just amazing - I felt happy pretty much all day (I got a little grumpy in the evening but that's ok.)  It was such a delight to just be like... good.

I think I have to try to do this again - to fully plan down time that has no commitments - and by that I mean appointments, really, cuz I don't mind CHOOSING to see friends or maybe even family (there was a birthday in there) and even though most of the appointments are things I've chosen to do, generally to improve or maintain my health, having a break like this was so good for me.  I could wake up all those mornings and not think "I have to be here at such and such o'clock" but rather "what might I want to get done or do today?"

The weather, for the most part, cooperated (aka not blazingly hot) too and that, I'm sure, helped.  

I think this may be something I could only pull off during Summer as Winter "holiday" time always feels so pressure-full.  Not that there aren't a ton of events going on right now, but I suppose I feel far more guilt not doing things over Winter than Summer.... like CELEBRATE OR ELSE... meanwhile it's dark and dreary and the days are short and cold and I mean right now... LOOK OUT THERE!!!!  It's bright!  All day!  Into the evenings!  I LIKE IT A LOT!

But anyway... back at it this week, and hoping to maintain some (or all!) of this chill and happy and all that jazz.  

Mental note absolutely made though... time off for me is extra great if it means absolute, complete, actual time off, not "time to catch up on appointments because I have extra time" time...  

Oh, and just to add, I'm very aware that this is a luxury not afforded to all and I'm very very grateful I can make it work.