Goal/Intention?

The Summer temps are here.  At least for a few days.  Warmer than I'd like, of course, but very happy making for a lot of others - and I'm genuinely pleased for them.  (And perhaps a little jealous.)

I'm trying to set a goal or intention for the Summer to not lose my sh*t about said heat.

I know my body isn't good with it so I'm at a bit of a disadvantage there, and I also know that my brain (especially the anxious portion) is not good with it, and so I'm trying to combat (or work with?) both.

Yes I have fans, and a portable air conditioner.  And a large living space that doesn't really cool as effectively as say... my car!  Like legit, before this my only experience with air conditioning (that I noticed) was in my/a car and it's like OMG THAT'S COLD!  Ahhhhhhh.... plus blowing right on my hands if I don't angle it away... or in a hotel room in a warm place...So I suppose I expected OMG THAT'S COLD! by having a unit in my main-big room-space but... well, no... cooling, sure?  But not cold. (Oh and before I forgot, we had a warm spell a while ago and that's when I learned that the gym has A/C OMG dreamy!  anyway...)

But one of the things I legit struggle with is the noise of these fans and air conditioner.

If I'm irritated or agitated (which let's be honest, is fairly often...sigh) I actually have a hard time with the noise.  No, I can't sleep with a fan on.  And I can only go so many hours of a day before I really really just have to turn off the fans and, well, that's not ideal.

So last Summer, even with the A/C and fans, I still got far too hot too many times and was quite miserable and this spiralled into a lot of anxiety and some panic attacks.

I am attempting to shift that this year.

One of the big things I'm trying to do is not future-forecast.  To just deal with the temperature TODAY.

Not "holy bleep it's going to be hot for the next three months and I can't do this, I just can't handle the heat and the noise and nothing is working and I hate that I hate this time of year when it's such a great time of year for so many reasons omg it's going to be hot forever!" but rather, ok today it's going to get up to about 28.  Let me see how I can manage today.

Maybe the noise won't bother me today.  I'll find out.  Maybe it won't actually heat up that much.  Maybe I can go somewhere for a few hours and give myself a break from the noise.  Just today.  I only have to deal with today's heat.  Not this week's, not this month's, not this Summer's... literally just today.  (With maybe a glance at tomorrow just for some forewarning and planning.)

I suppose I just wanted to write this post to acknowledge that this is something I'm going to work on this Summer in hopes I can stay calmer and handle things better.

(But also, if you're someone who loves or is ok with white noise (fans, A/C, etc.), I'm also jealous of you... count yourself very very lucky!)