Ok so this is a weird one and I'm aware it's a weird one which is why I started out by saying it's a weird one, you see?!
So I play some of those free online word games, like the one that got popular during lockdown and then was bought out by an American news organization? And then they have some other games and I play a few most mornings, kind of to get my brain going maybe? Although anecdotally I notice a difference on days where I'm not doing well or didn't sleep well I usually bomb the games on those days... which I find kind of interesting.
Aaaaaanyway.... there is one of these games that is a like pattern/colour matching game and I have NO idea why but at some point last year I was playing it and started thinking about a co-worker I have a little bit of difficulty with. Like I was probably playing the game and letting my mind wander while I looked for patterns and my brain probably wandered to work that day and I probably thought "oh man, I have to follow up with Person... ugh... I don't want to" kind of thing. At least that's my guess.
But the issue is that now whenever I play that game my brain thinks of that Person. Even on weekends and days off. Even when I don't have to interact with them or things are smooth with them. It's a really annoying association that I don't really want to have every damn day you know?
So I'm trying to change that and trying to replace that thought with some other thought but I can't think of anything positive/fun that feels as "trapped in my brain" like engaging. But I mean I'll keep trying because I find it pretty damn frustrating that my brain thinks of this person pretty much every time I play this game and I don't need that reminder.
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Canadian in England waving to her homeland ... what about a scene you know relatively well from a film? Not a fav fav film but one you think of fondly ...
Oh Anne (waving all the way back to you!) that's a great idea! I'll have to think of something to try that with :) Thanks!
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