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I am finding a lot of moments right now where I feel like I'm struggling with feeling "ok".

I'm sure there's a low level of stress waiting for my car to be fixed (they can't get me in right now and I get that I'm not a high priority... but still!) as it's sort of hovering always at the back of my mind.

Any time I look on social media I see things that are really upsetting.  All across and around the world.  I fight the battle of being informed and aware and staying vaguely calm, but I am not always good at that battle.

With that sort of low level stress vibration, little things become quite anxious things very easily.

I start to think too much about things that haven't happened but are going to... eventually.  (Not listing them, it will set me off for sure to do that.)

All the What ifs  and Oh no, whens.... they're gnarly.

I'm even (first world problem) struggling to find shows that are good enough to distract me.... many of them just feel blah when I go to watch them.

I think that's why I re-watch good shows more than not. Familiar friends, I know generally how things are going to go and what's going to be ok (or not.)