My regular counsellor is away for a few months (I will not see him for four months I think) and so I'm working with a new to me person in the meantime.
It's a slightly different modality but still we've had the sort of getting to know you starting sessions and because it's in the same location as my regular counsellor, I think part of my brain assumes this new person knows all about me. Which, as it turns out is, of course, wrong.
I was explaining to her that sometimes I just don't want to do the thing. Like, in this case, get groceries. That I know I'm not going to starve, I have food, I just need a few things more, or I'm running low and oh my lord I do not want to do it. Sometimes I'll put it off and then get stressed that if I put it off too long it'll be a really bad day and then I'll have to get groceries despite it being a bad day because I put it off for "too long" but sometimes I just really don't want to.
She paused and then said that that sounded like agoraphobia. (Where people don't want to leave their house, or where people avoid places they feel are unsafe, etc.)
Oh no, I had to clarify. I have no fears of the grocery store. It's not about being scared of going there at all, just that I really don't want to do it. I can't be bothered? I don't want to be bothered? But shopping is fine, not scary, just... annoying!?
And that's why I have to remember to not assume that counsellors are always right in their interpretation of whatever you share with them. Cuz no, I'm not afraid of shopping, I just find it a chore and so often don't want to do it. That's all!
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