For The Best

Today I'm going for a bladder ultrasound.

I'm to arrive with a full bladder, which I think is going to be really not fun, especially as I always pee before I leave the house!  But I can't this time and that's going to be weird.  I mean I guess I could leave an hour and a half early and sit there and drink the suggested amount (I'm to drink 3 cups an hour before) but I also think I'd rather be home on my couch chilling for that, so yeah I'll have to NOT do what I ALWAYS do and that's.... weird.

My understanding is that the ultrasound will be done twice.  Once on that full bladder (agh) and then once after I've emptied it to see if it's like for real emptied or what.

So I'm nervous and anxious about it all and how it might feel and the discomfort I might feel but it's diagnostic and so for the best and like I'm proud of myself for asking for the help and support and holy shit I'm so grateful I have a doctor, like so so grateful, so I know it's for the best but I also hope it goes really easily and isn't too... um.... difficult or awkward!