I know other countries were dealing with it quite intensely long before we were here and I remember hearing about it and quite frankly... I remember brushing it off like I have all the previous pandemic/epidemics before (Swine/Bird flu). It just didn't seem like something that would be relevant to me or my life.
I remember a conversation with my Mom, maybe Feb of last year where she said she hadn't been attending her Tai Chi class for a while because so many of her classmates travelled to and from China and I remember thinking this was a little bit racist and way over-reactive.
Turns out my Mom was proactive... go figure.
I remember when Covid hit these shores and I remember lockdown and I remember a lot of how I felt at that time. I remember feeling like it was possibly on every surface. Handrails, doorknobs, etc etc. And maybe it was (and maybe it still is) but that pervasive fear and anxiety I had around it has lessened. I do still use a handkerchief to open doors and touch things outside of my house. I do still change out of my clothes and wash my hands once I'm home. And I'm at a point again of "feeling" like my hands are dirty when it has been a while between washes. There are still a lot of things that give me huge anxiety around it all and still a ton of things I don't know when I will be doing them again (eating out IN a restaurant for example.) I still have very mixed feelings when I see everyone out and about wearing masks, because I'm happy they're doing it and yet sad that they have to.
Watching parts of the US presidential inauguration on Wednesday (and can I just say how much the term "Second Gentlemen" tickles my fancy!) I was pleased to see all the masks, and anxious about the few hugs I saw here and there. But I still wish this time in history... wasn't. That we didn't have all these photos and videos with the proof of this ongoing global pandemic that continues to kill so many and incapacitate so many others. I suppose I wish I could go back into my Bubble of Denial and just pretend this never happened.
But it did and it is and we're not through it yet and a year ago doesn't seem as far away as I'm used to. Last year feels like it was the most bizarre time warp of too long but also somehow short and here we are in a new year that feels quite a lot to me like a continuation of last year.