Wow... Ok...

Yesterday was the forecast "coolest" day in the next few days.  As in, it's not going to get any cooler than it was yesterday for, what, a week?

I did "ok".  I sort of coped.  But not well.

I cried twice.  Both times of panic/upset/tears were after 4pm I think, so I guess it turns out my apartment's worst times for heat are afternoon and into evening.  (And overnight... sigh)

I'm really trying hard right now to be ok with this heat, and trying to find ways to adjust, but as I lay on my bed last night knowing I'd not likely get much sleep, I did tell myself maybe it was time to actually consider getting an A/C unit.

I hate that I'm genuinely considering this.  I've never liked air conditioning.  That doesn't mean I don't appreciate it though.  I have it in my car and I use it when it's hot.  It makes a huge difference.  But it makes the air "weird".  Not to mention the crap it puts out into the environment and the electricity (gas in my car) it uses up.  A/C is NOT environmentally responsible or friendly or good.  And there's a horrific reality of these temperatures being caused by human behaviour and thinking about getting something that won't improve these temperatures in the long run.

But... I also need to be well.

Honestly, I don't know if it will work in my apartment (nor if I'm technically "allowed" to have one....)

Jason is away right now, "camping" in the woods to get away from the heat because he's smarter than I am apparently.  But I'll need him to come over and measure things and look at where plugs are and help me if I'm going to go through with this, so I'm telling myself I just have to get through this weekend/week and then Jason will get back to town and I'll ask him for help.  Sure I could do it myself, but I tend to miss-measure things or not know quite what to get and he's way better at these things than I am so I'm going to be asking him for help. (Plus he's my covid-bubble-friend so I don't mind doing things and going places with him.)

Do I think any local stores will still have stock?  No, I do not, to be honest, but I'm hoping if Jason and I can figure it out, someone will be able to order one for me.  Sigh.

Right now I have blankets and sheets hanging over my blinds.  As in, my window blinds are closed and then I've jerry rigged blankets/whatever over them for extra sun blocking.  I was going to use some Reflectix that I had on hand for the van, but I googled and there's a possibility it would overheat glass and possibly crack my windows from the heat and I don't want to risk that, so for now it's closed blinds, and blankets and fans pushing hot air around and one pushing hot air on to me.

I also bought a spray bottle to spray myself (and my head/hair) down, and I'm keeping up my water and electrolytes and trying to make sure they're cold as well.  I have things of ice to put in front of my fan when we pass that 2 or 3 pm mark when the sun starts hitting my place and things go from bad to way way bad.

I may try to go out at some point this evening, and I honestly, for the first time ever, may just run my fans all night.  (Again, sorry electrical bill and environment... sigh)

I turned my fans off last night when I attempted to go to bed.  I tried to fall asleep with a fan on me and earplugs in but it didn't go super well.  I put it on a timer and tried to fall asleep and still woke fully up when it went off.  But I'm going to try fans again tonight and hopefully the earplugs don't pop out from the heat like they did last night.

I didn't sleep exactly, but I resigned myself to doze-rest.  I got out of bed around five and walked around turning all my fans back on and then got back into bed with the fan on me and lay there not-not sleeping for a few hours.  I did consider going for a 5am walk, but figured some half sleep was a better idea.

My place cooled down to about 26 C overnight, which SUCKS.  But, hey, it is what it is.

I walked to the store this morning and got a pre-cooked chicken breast so I don't have to even turn on the stove top.  (I used the stove top last night and it was a dumb idea so I'm trying to avoid.)

I walked to another store and didn't buy a high powered fan.  I did stand there and stare at it for a while, knowing they would likely be sold out if I wanted one later or tomorrow, but hey... I already have four, and, well... I dunno.  Money needs to be saved I guess?

Sigh.

It's about noon as I write this, just over 27 degrees in my place.  I've not gotten to the worst yet, so here's to being "ok" while the heat is still not as hideous as it's going to be in a few hours.

I'm trying not to look at the forecast.  I'm trying to just be ok with things.  I'm trying to adjust and stay hydrated and cool and all those things.  But damn, this is not my favourite way to feel.

Hope you're doing ok.  And if you're someone who enjoys and does well in the heat, please have some extra fun for me, please!?