Shhhhhh

Sometimes I feel like I should just shut up.  Like, not speak.

For example... was walking home the other day and there is a crosswalk that crosses a street but the street has been blocked off for years to all but bicycles (there are post things, if that makes sense).  So the other day I was walking and some cyclists were turning off the main road onto this side road and so I stopped to let them pass, and another pedestrian sort of half stopped (slowed down) and the cyclists both stopped and waved us across.  Like, they stopped for us, the pedestrians.

Which is probably what's supposed to happen but it's so unusual for me to be treated well by cyclists (ahem) and the whole "you're a vehicle and I'm a pedestrian" thing felt odd and so I was thinking of how weird it was and so what I said out loud was "WEIRD!" while sort of speed walking in front of the bikes and what I meant was "this is an unusual situation and I have walked here many times and this is the first time I've encountered bikes in this way and so that's weird but it's also weird and nice that you're stopping for us so how weird is this whole thing!?" but what I said was " ... Weird!"

And as soon as I said it I realized I was the only person who had ANY idea what I meant by that and it was impossible for me to know if they knew what I meant or thought I was calling them weird or the situation weird or myself weird or anything and so yeah, I really don't know why I felt the need to say something but I did, and so I did and um.... yeah... I should just, like maybe not speak.