Sometimes

Sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere that I'm living in an ongoing global pandemic and that it's been going for more than a year and there's no real end in sight and that information is all just too much and it's still surreal and I think the "surreal" feeling is so that I don't get totally overwhelmed by how weird and not great this is.

I'm tired.  Let's turn off this tv show now, it's gone on too long, ok?

(Seriously.  I just don't want to do this anymore and I wish that was an option.)

("This" meaning this pandemic situation.)

Like, I don't even know if I'm explaining this right.  I just... sometimes it hits me that this "current reality" is really really really weird.  I mean I know I've never lived through anything quite like this.  Even SARS or whatever other one we've had that I can recall, it was never like this (not here at least, I know other provinces tell a different story, but still.)  We wear masks?  And get vaccinated?  I mean we, most of us, are vaccinated against other things and maybe get a flu shot but not like this?  Sure, I remember a public vaccination a while ago (again, SARS?  swine?  bird?  flu?) and needing to prove I'd had the shot to travel to wherever I was going (Mexico?) but still, it wasn't like this!  I didn't even consider a mask going to that public vaccination thing.  THIS IS JUST WEIRD!  And every once in a while my system overloads with it.  Masks.  Distancing.  Signs in stores.  Plexiglass.  All of it.  It just .... it's weird.

And similarly but not the same, I'm so tired of dealing with this.  And thinking about it and having to think about it and it's, a lot.  It's extra on top of life.  There's no "just" going to do something.  Going to an appointment means Covid screening questions and remembering a mask and washing hands and being aware of being around another person.  It's all extra.

So yeah.  Just... saying.