Friday, 3 September 2021

Too Much

There are so many thing presented by the news (and via social media repeating) that are just so very upsetting.  (I typed upsettling because I was thinking "upsetting" and "unsettling" so you know, that should probably be a word.. upsettling.)

I don't want to list them here but in generalities... weather stuff, health stuff, legal stuff, country stuff, differing opinions stuff.  And I am so overwhelmed by how awful it seems and feels when I look at the headlines and info.

And I know the solution often presented is "stay away" and I try.  But this stuff is psychologically made to draw us in.  To be addictive (for lack of a better term.)  I could go on and on about how social media is built on our brain's reward systems and how news media is built to draw viewership and how both are to make someone bags of money.  But I won't.  Because I'm so very tired.

So I know a lot of what's going on, and I feel helpless.  And I'm also very aware I do not have the ability to help right now.  Or the spoons.  Or the energy.  Or however you want to put it, and I feel crappy about that.

There is so much anger and judgment from both (all) sides.  And that's not helping.  But even I, who constantly constantly tries to understand where folks are coming from, even I am just done.  Like I can understand where someone might be coming from on the upsetting thing and I just don't care.  I don't care and I don't agree and I don't care to fight.  I do not have the energy.

I do not have the energy and it feels like the weight of all these things is on me and that's so completely unfair and untrue.

But man, things are too much right now, inside my head and out.

4 comments:

Jason Langlois said...

Unsetting? Upsettling sounds like some kind early-days gentrification of the prairies.

And yeah, the relentless "everything is awful" is exhausting.

Victoria said...

It really is, isn't it...

Elliott said...

I just don't understand how we as a society have (generally) devolved (if that is the right word) to relying on social media as the source of important information. How has this happened? And why?

I get so infuriated when I hear of an asthmatic dying in the parking lot of a hospital because all of the beds are full of non-vaccinated people or people taking veterinarian anti-parasite meds because social media assures them that is the way forward. There by the grace of God I go as an asthmatic.

As someone far smarter than me recently said...and I paraphrase...how do people justify relying on social media rather than experts for opinions on vaccinations and prevent yet turn to science for the cure when they get sick? Such a confusing paradox to me...

Victoria said...

I'm sure someone smarter than I has an actual answer for this. I'm going to say confirmation bias to sound like I know what I'm talking about...

No, it's something I do think about a lot and I do have to imagine studies and books (?) have been written about it. I keep seeing a "meme" right now that summarized said you don't actually have more information than the CDC or the WHO... they have all the research and you... you just have FB.

Sigh.