C-Dawg and I sometimes talk about "past self" and "future self" as in... well I don't want to do this but future self will thank me. Or, I'm so glad past self did laundry cuz now I have clean socks to wear!
It's usually around tasks that are necessary but ugh. Like grocery shopping, or laundry or, you know, stuff you don't want to so put put off but then when you put them off you end up being extra annoyed when you have to do them later?
Yeah, that.
So right now, I'm trying to convince my present/current self to do something rather than making it a future me problem. Get groceries. Like just go get them.
Except... well, I don't want to. And I don't, honestly HAVE to so... I tell myself I can just do them tomorrow. Or... like Sunday?
But with how my life and my brain are right now, I can't predict how tomorrow or Sunday or whenever will go. Not that you ever really can but I mean in terms of my energy and anxiety/mood.
So there's this internal fight, maybe you can envision those cartoon angels and devils on my shoulders and the argument is like... you're relaxing, you don't need to go get dressed, drive to the store, buy the things, come home, put them away, get undressed and then be all like un-relaxed? You don't need that. So why not wait until you're already out of the house and just add it to your "to do" things for that day ok? But then the other argument is that sometimes I've done that and the next day ends up being awful and I either push too hard and do the thing and regret it or I don't do the thing and now it's down to the wire and, well, ugh.
I know that future me always is thankful for what past me has done. It's more about present me and not wanting to put in effort. Or at least that's what I figure it's about.
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