ENOUGH ALREADY

Time change.

Mother f***ing time change.

I thought I had it beat, I really did.

I was exhausted last night.  Like truly exhausted.  (Interestingly so were other people I talked to... everyone was planning on an early night, go figure.)

I figured it would be perfect.  I was genuinely tired.  I was going to go to bed early for regular time but not too early on the new time.  I would wake up rested and restored at a decent hour the next morning having perfectly shifted my body to the new time in one night! WOOO HOOOO!

So I stayed up til around 9:30 (soon to be 10:30... a decent bedtime for sure) and I was, remember, super sleepy and tired.  I then, even more determined to have that deep amazing sleep, took sleep meds as an extra guarantee of resetting.  

I barely made it through a chapter of my book, just so sleepy.  I turned off the light and rolled over and... didn't sleep.

For hours I didn't sleep.  

I barely slept.  

I woke up at 8 (which wass 7, which is early but not too too early) and felt nauseated by the lack of sleep.  Especially knowing waking for work the next day would be even earlier.

Especially knowing I was exhausted and sleepy and AND took sleep aids.

So now it's mid morning and I'm in a miserable mood and feel like the time change has messed with me and my body lied to me and everyone's yet again talking about just stopping changing times and WE ALREADY SAID YES TO STOPPING and yeah, I hope I sleep well tonight but damn what poor timing for a miserable night..... when your body promises you a good sleep.... 

Sigh.