During the first session with this trainer, the main thing I had to battle in my head was the embarrassment, anger and upset I felt at how weak I've let myself get.
Not a helpful thought which is why I tried to kind of not get stuck on it, but wow... I am so much weaker than when I used to use machines and weights regularly. And it sucks. (And I'm in an older body to boot.)
I also have a couple of spots (back and one knee) that are feeling really not ok after the session (yes I told the trainer) and so that has me worried as it's hard for me to tell if it's just pain or injury pain. So I'm being cautious and careful and trying not to panic until I have reason to (reason being - it's clear it's an injury and I have to go to see a physio for treatment. Or something along those lines.)
Some pain is expected and normal and ok, but I'm not talking about the "I used my muscles and they're sore" pain I'm talking about that other pain that's either "this muscle needs some stretching or something" or "you broke a thing!" (I think it's not that but worry brain is worried.)
But feeling comparatively weak (compared to myself in the past) sucked and sucks. (And the pain sucks too. But I'm trying to take care of it and still doing things and even did a mini session this weekend in between trainer times... I'm TRYING!)
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