Wow.

I am pretty overwhelmed with work right now, as evidenced by a) how I feel and b) how my brain is "working".

I was on my way to work last week when I stopped at a red light along the route and realized I had no idea how to get to work.  

Like, on the route I have taken for four years now.  I was lost.  Completely unsure of where I was supposed to turn or go to get where I needed to go.  I had the very distinct thought that "I don't know how to get there from here." 

So... in the middle of this really disturbing and upsetting feeling, I sort of shrugged and said to myself that I figured muscle memory would probably kick in at some point, hopefully soon and that I'd just have to trust I knew what I was doing.  

And sure enough, I did actually get to work but that was an intense moment of understanding that my brain is not coping with the stressors as well as I might think it is.

And I am glad that that feeling didn't last longer than it did because it was a really disturbing feeling to not know something I know I knew.