I'm Here

I'm here, I'm here.

I'm alright.  I'm alright.

I'm saying this for you and for myself.  I'm here and I'm alright.

The temperature dropped last week.  This has been a godsend for me (as you might imagine). It was such a relief the first day I woke to moderate temperatures.  I did a bunch of stuff around the house that had just felt like too much.  And that night I slept.  Really actually slept.  

It won't last, this I know, but I am so happy to have this right now.

Friendship situation with Jason got even worse, more destructive (to me) and I think that and the heat have just sapped any creative energy I might have wanted or needed.  

June went quickly.  

I'm trying to figure things out.  I want to be here (here here - this isn't a veiled admission of anything, I literally mean this blog.) 

I finished the last episode of a show I've really enjoyed last night ("The Bear") and I suppose there was some inspiration in that... in the celebration of the creative process it shows and in the "lean in to who you are" sense that those actors give each character.  

I'm tired.  Emotionally.  But I'm here and I'm alright.  I hope you are too.