Oh Shush

I want stuff.

Fun stuff that I don't need or really would even use that much once I'd gotten it.

Like, I want an iPhone and an iPad.

But here's the thing... or one of the things. I don't need either one of these things.

I have an old iPod touch that my parents gave me because they weren't using it enough and I hardly use the thing myself.

Sure, I have a couple of app games I play but they're almost more of an annoyance than anything else now that I've gotten the hang of them.

I use my laptop a ton at home of course, but don't really need a replacement for it.

People have told me I'd love an iPad, but my laptop is working just fine (knock on wood) and would I even use an iPad enough to justify the cost?

Same with an iPhone. I have a cell phone that works just fine and I don't even really use it that much.

I text on it and take an occasional phone call in my car (which uses Bluetooth so I pretend I'm in a spaceship because it's super cool!) and I sometimes use the calculator to help me figure out what tip to leave at a restaurant, but do I need an iPhone? Not really.

But I want one.

I want one like a child having a tantrum in the store over the fruity cereal their Mom won't let them have.

Can I afford either one of them? No, not really. But seeing as I just did get my tax return back, the little whiny person inside of me says that I should use that money for FUN STUFF instead of paying off loans and other grownup stuff. I mean, who needs new shoes for Spring when I could have a FUN TOY THAT WOULD BE FUN! instead.

So I'm just kind of sitting here telling half of myself to shush and be quiet and go away because until I win the lottery and decide to buy a bunch of useless stuff just to have, I really don't need a new iAnything.

I hate being the grown up one though. Cuz sometimes I just want new stuff.

Sigh.