Unsure

I've heard people talk about writers block as them staring at the flashing cursor line on the blank computer screen.

For me, it's more about not having a story that wants to or needs to be told waiting inside my head.

I don't even bother opening up a writing screen if I don't have something to write so sometimes I'll have the computer open and it's every little other thing I can think of instead of writing.

Really bad tv shows to catch up on? Sure! There's a lot of that goes on once the not-so-bad or actually quite good tv shows have been caught up on.

I've spent most of this weekend in a place of not quite knowing what to do, somehow uncomfortable with the subtle shifts that are happening.

There is a good ninety percent of me that wants to shut down and retreat and feels like it is right and justified when it whispers silkily in my ear that it's never good to get close to people, not anyone, not really.

So one more day, one more one foot in front of the other carrying on and back to work where I'll wait the five days it takes for the next weekend to come and the next small pause I get.

On repeat this weekend:


Adele - Make You Feel My Love live acoustic 

Just waiting for the man who's going to come along and love me like that.