I try to remember not to idealize Chad because he certainly had his faults and I'm sure had I gotten to know him more, I would have found others, but there were things about him and us together that I really really liked.
I liked how easy he was to be around.
I liked how much we laughed together.
I liked that he was good looking.
And outside of those aspects of him, I liked having someone I knew was thinking about me, and I liked that he let me know he was thinking about me.
I liked getting giggly when I'd get a text from him and I liked feeling nervous and fluttery before seeing him.
I haven't forgotten the frustration, confusion and worry I went through when things went off, I'm just saying that it's difficult to forget the fun, good, nice parts of the start of a relationship, especially since it's the first one in a while.
Guess I'm wishing for something similar again. Something fun, uplifting, easy, giggle-and-flutter-inducing and good.
I think I'd like that.
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Sigh. Me too.
Maybe the Universe forgot about us?
Ugh, it's tough. You want to remember the good because the good made you feel great, but thinking about all that makes it such a bummer to then remember that the good is no longer there. And you certainly don't want to think about the bad because who wants to do that??
Oh how I wish for something fun and giggle-and-flutter-inducing too! It should be this hard to find! I think when you have that and then it disappears its really horrible :-(
*I meant to say shouldn't be this hard to find :-)
There's a whole raft of sayings about things that kind of go "you can't really know X until you have experienced Y"...
I wonder if they extend to being with somebody? Maybe we don't appreciate being with somebody until we have been, and then are not ?
Don't listen to me though - I'm just full of stupid ideas tonight.
Oh, Yamuna, I think the Universe is just saving something great for us ;)
Totally Mizkay, totally
I know what you mean, Haco
All ideas are welcome, Jonathan, even those you think aren't smart ;)
I'm wishing for that too!
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