Thursday, 3 November 2011
Missing What Almost Was
I try to remember not to idealize Chad because he certainly had his faults and I'm sure had I gotten to know him more, I would have found others, but there were things about him and us together that I really really liked.
I liked how easy he was to be around.
I liked how much we laughed together.
I liked that he was good looking.
And outside of those aspects of him, I liked having someone I knew was thinking about me, and I liked that he let me know he was thinking about me.
I liked getting giggly when I'd get a text from him and I liked feeling nervous and fluttery before seeing him.
I haven't forgotten the frustration, confusion and worry I went through when things went off, I'm just saying that it's difficult to forget the fun, good, nice parts of the start of a relationship, especially since it's the first one in a while.
Guess I'm wishing for something similar again. Something fun, uplifting, easy, giggle-and-flutter-inducing and good.
I think I'd like that.