Monday, 4 June 2012

A Lot

Like Skin by foundimagination
I've been wound extra tight over the last week or two and while I'm proud of my decision to start moving forward with the process of buying a place, there's been a lot of stress involved.

I've gone to bed almost every night clenching my teeth, trying to wish away a headache after looking at listings online. And then I've woken up almost ever morning and thought "forget this, I'm not buying a place, I'll just stay here."

I've said over and over again how I don't understand how people can find this fun or enjoyable, when all it seems to be is a ton of stress, worry, anxiety, and nerves. (They're probably all the same thing, but they don't feel like it.)

It was near the end of last week when my co-worker said "you know, you've done a lot in the past ten days." And I guess I hadn't thought of that.

I kind of went from zero to sixty all at once and met with a realtor and a mortgage specialist and made calls and sent emails and tried to get all my financial ducks in a row and then tried to start weeding through places because what if I missed the perfect one but what if I found something and bought it and then hated it and there really was too much all at once.

I don't know if I felt the need to rush, or just to get going, to get started, but yes, I did take on a lot, very suddenly, in a short amount of time. And it didn't feel good.

I do hope, however, that now that the initial work has been done, I can just sort of relax into it a bit. I don't know that I'll ever be mellow zen about this whole thing, but it must in some way be better than the last week or two, right?

I guess that I might not enjoy going out to look at places and I'm pretty sure I'll feel really freaked out if/when I get to the actual buying/signing/massive loan that they just call a mortgage part but it can't always be this intense, can it?

So, yeah. I've done a lot in the last ten days and I would like a break from that, a mellowing slow down from all that.

Because this feels very much like a head on road to burnout crashville and I don't want or need that. It's been crazy around here and I hope it mellows out now.


Anonymous Bad.Days said...

Take your time and don't feel pressured to move quickly. If you've got all the financial stuff in order, you can just sit back and look at listings...or not.

Don't worry about missing "the right one". It's a home, not a soul mate, and you can always move if it really ends up being a bad choice.

Monday, June 04, 2012 8:18:00 am  
Blogger Victoria said...

Oh man, that cracked me up! "It's a home, not a soul mate" Awesome! I needed that :)

And yeah, I can probably now just sit and.... see ;)

Monday, June 04, 2012 5:42:00 pm  
Blogger Dateafrenchman said...

Totally agree. There's no rush. Just browse the listings a couple times a week and visit places that look fabulous. Pace yourself so you don't freak out.

Tuesday, June 05, 2012 2:16:00 am  
Blogger Victoria said...

I think I need to figure out what looks fabulous by popping into a few open houses or something because so far by just looking I have no idea! ;) Would very much like to not freak out, that's for sure :)

Tuesday, June 05, 2012 6:14:00 pm  

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