Saturday, 23 February 2013
In our back and forth getting to know you, we'd asked each other why we both found ourselves on an online dating site, and what we were, ultimately, looking for in a partner.
I threw together an answer for him, what I was looking for in a guy, and his answer back still makes me smile to this day.
I remember also, not too terribly long ago now, him calling me in the middle of the night to reassure me about something that had really upset me.
We've been in very different time zones, you see, and that has meant that much of our conversation has been via emails that then would not be answered/read for another half a day.
And so I, going to bed very upset one night, was awoken by a call from him assuring me that all was well with us, and with him, and the fact that he did that, just to make me feel better was one of the moments I remember thinking just how much I really cared for this guy.
I think I can say it's been since mid-December that I've had really good, strong, positive feelings for Jay, easily since then. I would tell you I love him but you'd tell me there's no way that's possible, so I just won't tell you.
These things happen in stages. In degrees. In moments.
The being caught by someone who's also falling and spinning and then you settle, together. Somehow.