You guys, I just don't know what to say.
Do you ever, maybe it's just me, find yourself in a situation where someone has said something hurtful, incredibly hurtful, and it just plays over and over and over in your head?
That's where I'm stuck.
I mean, yes, had this ended differently, I would still be sad that it didn't work, and I would be going through all the usual tears you do when a relationship ends, but on top of all that, way way more then that, is me trying to get over how Jay was this weekend. How he acted Monday night especially, and I just keep replaying it all in my head trying to figure out why. And who that guy was. And why he replaced the man I loved.
It's what keeps knocking me back to head between my knees, can't breathe, confusion and tears.
I just don't see how you can be so rude, so disrespectful to anyone, never mind someone you lived with and say you loved, and still, apparently love.
I just don't get it.
I really, really don't.