Wednesday, 12 June 2013
I don't even know what to say, I really don't. There's so much I could tell you and write about but I can't talk about it right now without losing it. Really, seriously. Like, head between my knees to stop me from fainting. I am so ....
This was my first time ending a relationship. Which I guess is supposed to be a good thing.
But how it ended was awful.
Which hurts even more.
And I don't know how everything changed so drastically in a week. I'm baffled. And utterly shocked by him and how he handled everything. Really, really stunned. I've been in shock since it happened. Honestly.
I don't know if I'll post anything more this week.
(And I'm not quite ready to hear how it'll all be ok, and how there's a great guy out there for me. It was ok, and there was a great guy right here with me. And then he disappeared and I have no idea what happened.)
This right now, isn't a day by day thing, this is a minute by minute thing. And I'm not ok.