Wednesday, 12 June 2013

Over

As The Crow Flies by foundimagination
Well, there's a first time for everything.

I don't even know what to say, I really don't.  There's so much I could tell you and write about but I can't talk about it right now without losing it.  Really, seriously.  Like, head between my knees to stop me from fainting.  I am so ....




This was my first time ending a relationship.  Which I guess is supposed to be a good thing.

But how it ended was awful.

Which hurts even more.

And I don't know how everything changed so drastically in a week.  I'm baffled.  And utterly shocked by him and how he handled everything.  Really, really stunned.  I've been in shock since it happened.  Honestly.

I don't know if I'll post anything more this week.

(And I'm not quite ready to hear how it'll all be ok, and how there's a great guy out there for me.  It was ok, and there was a great guy right here with me.  And then he disappeared and I have no idea what happened.)

This right now, isn't a day by day thing, this is a minute by minute thing.  And I'm not ok.
 

21 comments:

Dominic said...

hug

Anonymous said...

im sorry things have ended in such a hurtful way for you.
sending hugs from another corner of the world.

Elliott said...

I'm so sorry this went sideways so quickly for you. Change can be stressful, but he certainly didn't seem to be making any effort to participate in a joint life with you anymore. Which is sad, disappointing, frustrating, and a whole lot of other emotions. If a guy wants to stay in a girl's life, he will move mountains to do so...I'm so sorry he doesn't seem to want to.

Take the time you need and know there are a lots of people in the world hoping you get back to your old self quickly.

Hayley Mathis said...

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kandijay said...

Aw, honey... :( *hugs*

Go ahead and wallow for a while. Feel what you feel, don't let anyone else tell you how to feel.

Victoria said...

Thanks Dominic. (not really up for eating today, but soon, I'm sure)

Thank you Anon, I am too.

Thank you very much Elliott, that does help to hear.

Wow Hayley, that's great and very flattering. Thank you. I'd do a happy dance, but... just not today. Thanks though, very cool.


Thanks kandijay.

Kate said...

Wallow, wallow, wallow... Until you feel you don't need to anymore...

Thinking of you (I woke up first thing this morning hoping you were ok!) Yes, I know, very bizarre from a random stranger on the other side of the world ;-)

Victoria said...

Thank you Kate. It actually makes me feel like I'm getting a giant, giant hug from everyone today, which helps a lot.

Happydog said...

Well shit...but ya on the blog getting recognition, as it should. Know it's small comfort right now. Universe you have one heck of a sense of humour...
Sending good thoughts your way...

Victoria said...

Yeah, I know, right? Thanks HD

Matt79 said...

I'm really sorry to hear this. I was shocked by how quickly it all happened in the last post. Sending another stranger-across-the-world hug.

Victoria said...

Me too Matt.

Thanks.

Unknown said...

Hope today was a better day **hugs**

Victoria said...

I'm having better moments Sabrina. Thanks

Elana Elizabeth said...

I'm sorry. Big hugs!

Victoria said...

Thanks

Just Sayin... said...

hugs xo

Victoria said...

Thanks.

Anonymous said...

just feel your pain dear.. going through the exact same thing across the world from you! Hug

Victoria said...

Thanks

Samantha said...

Thanks for this beautiful and heartfelt piece. So feel your pain and know things will get better. Keep us posted!