Thursday, 3 October 2013

I Really Don't Know

I've been writing a nightly journal for nearly five years now.

In my mind, it's poetry, poems, but it's also just to keep myself writing and to get something out about the day.

I write these sort of poems every night before bed, before I pick up whatever book I'm reading, and I write them in a moleskine diary type book.  Blank, daily pages.  With lines.  And my ink pen.

But I don't know why, quite, anymore.

Not that I don't enjoy the writing and the ritual of it, and I'll sometimes flip back to earlier in the year to see how I felt about something (like, Jay, for example) but now I have three or four of these books just sitting in storage and I don't know what to do with them.

I've never re-read any of the old things I've written and I don't know that I want to, particularly.

Should I go through and look and see if there are any actual poems in there?  Or things worthy of saying in a different format?  Or things worth remembering?

Or should I burn/shred/destroy the old journal/diaries... or what?

I really don't know what to do, if anything, but I'm not sure of the point of keeping them.

And I guess the point of continuing to write every night is just to be writing.  Every day.  Or night.

Or something.

5 Comments:

Anonymous Jonathan said...

KEEP THEM! One day, they will be a treasure trove for future generations. You might even look back on them yourself after 20 years. Who knows.

I have two Moleskines... I should really write more often in them, but end up sharing the censored version online instead.

Thursday, October 03, 2013 10:31:00 am  
Anonymous Kate said...

I have all of mine from age 9 on-wards. I'm not sure what to do with them either - I certainly don't want to re-read those teenage angst years or the other sad times that have come since... But something just makes me hold onto them.

Thursday, October 03, 2013 6:22:00 pm  
Blogger Victoria said...

It was actually one of your Moleskine photos that made me think of this Jonathan...

I hear you Kate. I wonder if it would be interesting to read someone else's?

Thursday, October 03, 2013 8:18:00 pm  
Anonymous Kate said...

I re-read a holiday journal from when I was 18 to my best friend who was on the trip with me (15 years later) and boy did we laugh! It was definitely great to re-live our 18 year old selves :-)

Monday, October 07, 2013 3:04:00 pm  
Blogger Victoria said...

That would be so fun to read Kate! I bet you guys had a great time remembering :)

Monday, October 07, 2013 4:45:00 pm  

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