Wednesday, 17 September 2014
Back To Life
Like, really good.
I felt relaxed and happy and like everything was right with the world.
Jason said I looked radiant. Gorgeous...or stunning, I don't remember anymore, and he said he'd never seen the changes Burning Man could have on someone in person.
He's the only one who noticed anything particular. Some folks told me it looked like I'd toned up. (I guess biking for a week will do that to you) and people mentioned I "looked good".
I tend to get compliments when I've had a bit of sun. I'm a very pale person and although I'm not a fan of skin damage, a little bit of a tan suits me. I always get told I look healthy.
So I got some of that too. I felt like I came back more attractive than I was when I left, and that was a feeling thing, not a how I actually look thing, although the Playa hair and tan and relaxation did help somewhat I suppose.
I still feel good, I guess. But as I told Jason when he said he wanted to shoot how I was looking, I was pretty sure it would fade. It's hard to be confronted with the reality of day to day life and the lives of those around you and the bitter and the stressed and the angry and to keep feeling relaxed and free and...perfect.
But I guess I just wanted to point out that the way I felt coming back this year felt like a 180 from how I felt when I came back last year, and that's been awesome.
I didn't come back feeling ugly and unattractive. Maybe I almost came back feeling the opposite.