Monday, 15 October 2018
I'm not in a good mood. Which makes me not want to talk. I haven't woken up in a good mood in weeks. Two, to be precise. I'm not saying I wake up grumpy, that's most mornings... I mean I wake up and as soon as my brain realizes we're no longer asleep the anxiety and worry and fear and terror kicks in.
I'm usually (usually) able to slow it or put it aside to start my day but it really is a horrible way to wake up. It's a horrible way to have a day start... nevermind two weeks of it. With no end in sight.
As in.. the things I'm stressing so highly over? I don't see them changing or ending or getting "better", so it's on to me to try to change how I feel or react to them.
Which brings me back to right now. I'm grumpy. Because I woke up from a fairly ok sleep and was hit within moments with panic. Can't go back to sleep... don't feel motivated to do.... anything. Hence grumpy.
Hopefully it'll wear off a bit as the morning goes on. Bad moods are not my fave. At all.