Life is so life-y and lately I've been wanting and wishing that I could pause, or reset or, I think I even said at one point that I'd like to put this book down and start another. You know, change the channel to a "better" show?
Like I get it doesn't work that way. Jason suggested upending everything and moving away and starting all over again but that's not me. That's not the book I want to start.
I guess it's partly wanting to not be sick anymore. Or do I say "unwell"? It's partly, or maybe mainly due to my life being currently unsettled, SO unsettled by my unwell-ness and how that affects work/not work and just nothing is settled really... and maybe that's messing with me more than I realize.
I know, I know, you don't really know what's going on or where I'm at, I KNOW this because I haven't shared it, but I mean, ugh. I'd like to use a melon baller to scoop out the parts of my mind I don't want anymore. Nice and clean and tidy and only the good stuff left, please and thank you.
But, hey, it's the weekend. Let's enjoy it shall we?