In My Dreams

*dreamy happy sigh* (kind of)

Last month I had two wonderful "I'm in love" dreams that had amazing moments but then also some upset. 

The first was me having this just amazing and perfect connection with an amazing (and like SO SO SO! HOT) guy.  We were getting along so well with this intense heart connection and then at some point I started to really look at him and thought to myself "hmm, he might be younger than I thought?" So then I brought up age (or whatever/however these things happen in dreams) and he said that he was *whatever* age but figured he could date an older woman, like maybe up to around say 37?  And so in the dream my heart sank.  Because of course I'm twelve years beyond that and so part of me knew it likely wasn't going to work but another part of me was sure we could get over it because of our connection, but when I woke up I was both impressed at the extreme attractiveness my brain cooked up but also bummed by the fact my brain seems to *know* that I am "too old" or that things won't work out or whatever.  But yeah that dream guy was so hot. And we were SO in love.  Too bad it probably won't dream work out. 

The next was a week or two later and I was at a party and happened to meet Pedro Pascal (the actor) there.  And yes, of course, in dream world we (yet again) had an amazing connection and got along like a house on fire and ended up having sex and when it was morning and I was putting on my clothes I realized that Jason was going to be picking me up from the party soon (huh?) and so I mentioned to Pedro that if I didn't make a call soon my friend would be there to pick me up and since we both wanted to spend more time together, should I make that call and then Jason showed up early (UGH) and Pedro realized he was a guy and sort of got a bit defensive and like "is this guy going to be a problem?" and then I woke up and figured that my brain thinks that having Jason as a friend might be an issue with a potential future boyfriend (?) but when I tried to go back to sleep, I tried to make the story be that like Pedro could talk to Jason and Jason would explain that he's not a threat and then Pedro would see that Jason and I are not well suited romantically anyway and then I woke up without really getting anywhere else in the dream but I did remember that as far as I know, Pedro Pascal has a female best friend anyway so maybe whatever jealousy there might be might go both ways, I dunno?  I just know that I'm likely never going to meet him but that my psyche thinks we'd really get along well.

It's actually the only "celebrity" dream I can remember after being completely surprised by a John Mayer one years ago.

So yeah, my dreams are giving me dream men, but not without some upset or complication.  But I'll take those dreams over actual bad ones, you know?