That Was Mean

One of the nastiest bad dreams I've had of late was a really weird one I still don't really understand.

In the dream I was out and about when I ran into Jay.

Jay who has died - is dead.

And in this dream I told him I thought he had died and he laughed and said that yes that was just a big joke he played on his wife/partner. (Implying that he faked his death to escape her?)  I was horrified at this and told him as much and my brain brought up the visuals his partner shared at the time of him literally on his death bed (again, I wish I had never seen that video and image) and I told him what he'd done was not ok and then I woke myself up and as you can imagine, it was pretty damn upsetting.

I don't know why my brain brought him up, or why my brain made up that particular story.... he could be a jokester sure, but that as a joke seemed just cruel.... was my brain trying to remind me he wasn't always nice?  I don't know, but I didn't like it and the whole thing was disturbing and it would be a lot handier if bad dreams were the ones you forgot.