Hellooooooo*

*Mrs Doubtfire voice

I know I've been quiet here lately.  Most of my energy right now feels like it's going into other things.  Some of that has to do with me feeling rather emotionally low and occasionally miserable and not wanting to write or talk about that but also not having the energy to fake neutrality or something.

I mean I'm ok.  Or "ok" in quotation marks maybe, and I suppose the shortest explanation is that a few months ago I started a new type of counselling (at the recommendation of my psychologist) and it has dug up some pretty heavy stuff that has left me quite heavily depressed (for lack of a better term.)

When I mentioned this low low mood to the counsellor she said that yes, that made sense as I was grieving.

Which.... ok, fine, I can accept that but I'd also like to not feel this way?  And also also I have to get through my day to day and keep functioning as an adult who lives alone (and therefore has to do all the shopping and cooking and cleaning and stuff and things?)

But yeah, I know I've not been writing.  I'm trying to get there.  Which maybe entails me giving myself permission to 'whine' about the blah and the meh and the low.

Beyond that, how the BLEEP is it the end of November already?  You tell me!