It is December. And in case you live in a place that is not Christmas-oriented, around here, that means CHRISTMAS HOLIDAY TIME FOR THE NEXT MONTH OH BUT ALSO THE LAST FEW WEEKS HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Traditionally this is a tricky time of year for adult me and for whatever reasons, last year I really felt like being Christmassy so I bought mini lights and put them up and I got a mini light up tree thing and put it on my table and it was nice.
And right now? As we wander in to December (the month of many holidays) I am not feeling it. But not in a bad way just in a ... "shrug" kind of way. (Hard to explain.)
I have written (and sent) my International cards and I'll likely work on my US and local cards this week. (Our postal strike has resolved after a year of them having to struggle through negotiations.) This weekend, I put the decoration thing on my front door (I saw my across the hall neighbour had put something up on hers and I wanted to be a part of sharing the season with my neighbours) and I pulled out some of my small decor and put it up, and then took it back down.
I have advent calendars (hard to find the cheap ones wow) and the business of traffic and stuff will keep me as out of the malls as I can be (Hillside, I'm looking at you seeing as I don't really go to the others....)
But I'm not feeling the pull to put stuff up in my place - to decorate. I don't know yet what I will do on and around the day itself. My folks are going to the mainland to be with one brother. I have invites to join C-Dawg (but that feels really intrusive despite her assurances it's not) and my other brother's family and Jason may or may not be in town and even just thinking about what I might do is freaking me out so I'm not going there right now.
I have gifts bought. Not yet wrapped.
I'm just not... feeling it. We'll see if that changes over the next while, eh?
2 comments:
Hope whatever you decide works out for you. I've had a couple of solo Christmases and actually found them very peaceful. I watched Christmas shows, ate good food and enjoyed some Cosmopolitans! The chaos of big Christmas get-togethers really stresses me out.
Well thanks Yvonne :) I'm all about trying to find the peace these days. Cosmos are yummy, good call! ;)
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