Last month I talked about shredding my old journals and how it was bumming me out to lose the positive memories I was noticing as I did so, and that it was upsetting to have forgotten these moments and that now they would be lost to me and my mind forever.
I thought a lot about this. It was pretty upsetting. Additionally so due to the hormonal changes I'm working through and how they're shattering my memory in a nasty kind of way. (Hello perimenopause... sigh.)
The idea I have come up with is to have a separate journal (which I have now bought) to store these happy, good, positive moments in. It's a little bit of extra work, sure. And I'll have to sort of actively remind myself to do it. (Like "oh that was nice, I should write that down in the happy journal") but I'd like to have a collection of memories I can look through of the positive things that happen in my days and my life.
The days I shredded are gone. And I do kind of regret not finding a way to keep some of those memories but honestly the bad stuff was really troubling and upsetting to read through so I chose to just keep things simple and get the removal done. An imperfect solution but it cleared that mental space for me.
I've got a few entries in there already, and I hope I keep it up and keep noticing things that are good and positive in my life and days.
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