Oh Boy

Ok, so, here's the thing...

Uh, my brother just kinda barely avoided a heart attack a few days ago. 

Which is a not all that overly dramatic way of saying he was having chest pain, went in to get it looked at and turns out he needed some interventions.

It's been a shock to us all, and my stress and anxiety have gone sky high.  I went in for a battery of tests myself and my cholesterol is slightly elevated as well as a couple of other things I'll go over with my doctor.

I'm somewhere between being in shock and totally freaking out.  And while things could have gone a lot worse for my brother and we're all very happy he went in when he did (more people should do this!) it was still a shock and quite upsetting.

So my plans to "write more posts in a couple of days" just did not happen, obviously, and I'm still processing things and having some pretty rough moments.

I don't really want to babble his private health information out so I'll just say it's good.  Could have been very bad.  Isn't. 

And now I have a lot of things to figure out how to deal with on top of the other things I was figuring out how to deal with but just so you know I'm sort of messy right now.  Like, kind of extra a mess.  You know?

But everyone's ok in that way where you put it in quotations.  We're "OK".