Yeah....

Only cried once yesterday with being overwhelmed by the heat.  It was at about nine thirty at night when my apartment was 30 degrees C with all the attempts I was having at keeping it cool.  

My attempts by the way seem very... un... good.  Like I don't know what I'm doing, thermodynamically speaking.  I point fans out windows but then think I should close the windows so I do but then it all just seems worse so I open them up again and point the fans out, no, wait, in?  And then I have the one fan that I think was not meant to run for an entire day and the plug gets hot and the motor gets hot and I'm just not comfortable with the fact it might burn down my entire apartment so... I'm down a fan?  Or do I try moving them around and put that one in the bedroom pointing out... in?   But then there's nothing in the hallway moving air?  Oh lord, help.  

I did try really hard to be ok yesterday and if we're going by "amount of times I cried from the heat" I was down one, yay?  I took three cold showers over the day completely soaking my hair.  I sprayed myself with my spray bottle, I kept hydrated with cool water, I kept my electrolytes up, I ate decently, I went outside to read a book at the hottest part of the afternoon (5/6) I did exercise in the morning, I tried so hard.

I thought I'd just try to stay up late and sleep late but I got tired around 11 so was like oh well body wants to try sleeping!

Thought I'd try to sleep in my living room as it's a larger space and so more, uh, more of a feeling/sense of air?  So I did try but it was about 30 in both areas so I figured it would be more comfortable lying on my bed, which it was.  With a fan pointed on me and earplugs in.  Still wasn't what I'd call sleep, but hey, rest is better than nothing for sure.

Got up around 1 am and it felt cool enough to turn off fans and take out earplugs and try to sleep and seems I got a few hours (AMEN!)  Five am rolled around and I got up and turned fans back on (and got my invite to book my second vaccination, YAY!) and thought I'd go back to sleep but that didn't happen.

So I got up, had some tea, gave my plants a little top up of water (I mean if I'm hot they must be too, right?) and here I am, contemplating surviving another day.

(I guess saying "trying to survive the heat" sounds over dramatic but it feels like that for me.)

Jason is back in town and I invited myself to try sleeping at his place for a couple of nights and he didn't say no so that's possibly where I'll end up tonight.  My parents very kindly invited me to stay there as did my brother but there's still the risk of Covid high in my mind and Jason and I are already exposed to each other (immature guffaw) so less of a risk in my mind anyway.

I figure if I head over to Jason's at some point in the afternoon, I should probably come home at some point to check on fans (and re-open blinds a bit, which I can do around 6:30 when the sun stops baking my place directly and hides behind a building).  I'm a little nervous that if I do stay there my fans will run overnight... so far I've woken up at some point each night to turn them off, but... shrug, I don't know.  It's probably better to leave them on and at least pretend they're helping rather than turning them off and wishing I hadn't?

Rumour, sorry, forecast has the heat breaking a bit in a couple of days, so in theory this is just a stop gap for tonight and Monday night... 

And again, if you're a heat person I am happy for you.  If you're someone who doesn't mind all this, or who has a space that is reasonably cool or a back yard with shade or whatever other methods you have of being or staying cool, I'm sorry if I seem ridiculous.  But honestly, for some of us this isn't going well and where we live isn't conducive to cooling off.