Oof

I've had a rough go of it lately.

I had a pretty good week, then two really hard weeks and now we're starting another week and I have to hope it's a gooder again!

I've been trying to pay attention to things I can change that might be affecting the good or bad of a week and I have my suspicions (around actual food vs snacking food and gym or outside cardio vs inside cardio) but it's all easy enough to talk about on paper and harder to implement in reality.

I'm over half way to my fiftieth birthday and I told myself this would be a year where I made changes to be more "me" centered, like what do *I* need and want vs contorting myself into what I think others need or want.

It hasn't been necessarily as easy or simple as I'd hoped or imagined but the intention is still there.

I think in general, even with the bad days and rough weeks in there I'm feeling better and stronger than I have in a while.

That's not an invitation for a life challenge, by the way, but I'm aware that life does as it wants and I have no real control over that.

But yeah, July has had some pretty gnarly days, or parts of days at least and that's me being polite about it!