Flying Solo

I'm not hanging out with Bird anymore.

You heard it here first.

I mean, not that there's really anywhere else you could go to hear about it, but still. You heard it here first.

See, Bird and I had plans for BC day and Bird? Didn't follow through. Again.

And he didn't apologize and he didn't do it well. In fact, Bird sent me a text message telling me he was going to the gym and then to bed.

Which left me downtown listening to the concerts by myself.

And it's not that I'd minded being down there by myself when I'd known company was joining me later, but being stood up in that way, and having the fun evening suddenly lose half its company can really bring a girl down. Which it did.

And then the nicest thing happened. I'd been text messaging earlier with a fellow I've just recently gotten to know (calm down, y'all, he plays for the other team, we're just hanging out) and when I told him I'd been stood up he immediately asked if I wanted him to come down.

Which I did.

And we had fun and we looked at cute guys together, and we enjoyed Feist's (always excellent) show.

But it was a stark contrast to me. This guy that I barely know, have hung out with a few times offering to come down and keep me company v/s Bird who had given his word that he'd come to the shows with me bailing without so much as a thought to how it might make me feel.

Wow.

So I was hurt and upset and more than a little annoyed and so I sat down and wrote Bird out a letter explaining how I've felt he has treated me, especially recently, and asking why he wasn't talking to me about things. And then I texted him and asked him if I could have some time that weekend to talk to him. To which I got a pissy text message back. *sigh* So since we'd made plans with some other people to meet up the next weekend I decided I'd give the letter to him then since I didn't feel like dealing with a petulant child of a man.

And then he didn't show up that weekend.

And I decided to just scrap the letter and move on. Because if he didn't get it, what was my laying it out for him going to do? Probably not much.

I haven't heard from him since. I mean, sure, he showed up at a friend's house, but didn't make eye contact or say hi or anything until he was leaving.

At which point he looked at me and raised an eyebrow and said, with all his charm "What, I don't even get a hug?"

So I gave him one. Shaking my head at whatever the heck he must have been thinking. Or not thinking.

And then he left.

And I burst into tears. I burst into tears because I wanted him to be so different from who he is and I wanted our friendship to be wonderful and if anything romantic came from that, well that would just be a fantastic bonus, wouldn't it? I'd really thought he was different from the person he's shown himself to be and I get sad when it turns out the beautiful person I see only exists in my mind.

So I haven't heard from Bird in a couple of weeks and I don't expect to hear from him again, to be honest. Usually I'm the one who keeps in contact and checks in and as much as I'll miss having someone attractive and male to cuddle up with while watching a video, I'm done being treated like this. This isn't friendship. This isn't even a decent acquaintance....ship.

So while Bird and I were never dating and never kissed or anything? We're no longer together. The one sided friendship is done.

Which is kind of a bummer.

Guess it'll be a little boring(er) around here for a while. Sorry y'all.