Tuesday, 22 March 2011

R is for Running


I can't believe I forgot about my alphabet posts* for so long!

I've had "R is for. . . ?" up on my sticky-note-of-post-ideas for a long time but it wasn't until last night that I noticed that it was next to the post idea "running update" and my brain went "Dur... doesn't. . . running start with. . . R?"

Ding ding ding we have a winner!

Ahem.

So, a running update.





Oh, y'all, I'm not loving it right now.

Part of that is that on clinic nights I don't have a friend to run with and I miss S being there. I loved knowing that she'd be there to chat with or not chat with when my breath ran out and that we could catch up on our lives and weeks and that I didn't have to make small talk because it was a friend.

So now on clinic nights I don't look forward to the run because I'm always wondering if I'll have to run with someone and talk to them, and I don't really want to talk to a stranger. Plus, when I run with someone I don't know, I feel obliged to run at their pace even though I don't know if we run at similar speeds so it's not... fun.

I'm also not feeling the same sense of accomplishment I did previously. This clinic is a repeat of the last one I did so I'm running distances and times I've already run. And while I'm sure I'm running them faster, it sure doesn't feel like it and as I said to someone the other day, every time I run it makes me feel unfit.

Sure, I love love love how I feel once I'm done running, but during it I'm not enjoying myself. At all.

I'm finding it harder to motivate myself to run on my own too, so I've lost a bit of the routine I had going which means that when I do run I'm not feeling as great which makes me feel like I'm unfit and the whole negative cycle thing starts again.

Maybe I've raised my mental standard too high. Like, when I started in September, EVERYTHING was a major accomplishment because I'd never run before. But now that I can't say I've *never* run before I don't feel like I'm accomplishing much, and that's not fun.

I'd hoped that C-Dawg and I would be able to run together now that she's moved back to town but her schedule doesn't allow it and we haven't managed to pull it off more than once or twice.

So it's a struggle right now and things in my body are hurting a bit and so I tell myself I'm doing the right thing by resting them, but then the next time I go out to run I feel like I've lost some fitness or haven't improved so it's more difficult and I don't know.

I guess I just have to keep forcing myself to do it and keep doing it and that some is better than none and that even running slowly for half an hour is still better than I ever thought I could do and is still better than what a lot of people are bothering to do.

I just wish it felt better.




*If you're looking for a way to fill time, you can search around for my "A is for, B is for, C is for, etc." posts. I seem to remember starting them when I needed something to write about when my brain went blank.

7 Comments:

Blogger Just Sayin... said...

Just a rut.
At least you're being proactive while you feel blah.

This too shall pass.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 9:04:00 am  
Anonymous Dominic said...

I've had the hardest time getting back into running since I broke my shoulder.

It's now healed up to the point where it's not any handicap as far as runs go, but getting out of bed in the mornings early enough to go out? When it's dark and it's cold and it's probably wet, and bed is warm... No thanks!

Fortunately, longer days are coming and I'm managing to get back into the habit.

Have you tried a completely different type of route? When I was in Los Angeles a while ago, the street runs were incredibly dull, but there was a mountain route that I really enjoyed..

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 1:00:00 pm  
Blogger Victoria said...

Thanks JS. It really does help to hear that.

Aww, that's no fun for you Dominic, I'm sorry :( It'll get better and better though!

I have switched up routes a bit, but yeah, I should try another place too. :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011 4:32:00 pm  
Blogger Jonathan said...

If you lived near me, we could go running together, and you could shout at me to keep up with you, and feel good about being fitter than me :)

Wednesday, March 23, 2011 4:17:00 pm  
Blogger Victoria said...

Dude! If I could run with you and actually be faster! I'd feel GREAT! :) Thanks for the thought, that'll cheer me up next run!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011 5:19:00 pm  
Blogger Patricia said...

When I get bored of my running routine, I try to do intervals, to make it more interesting while also challenging. I'll spring for a minute and walk for 2 minutes. It really spices things up and still makes the miles add up! :D

Sunday, March 27, 2011 5:52:00 pm  
Blogger Victoria said...

Thanks Patricia! :)

Monday, March 28, 2011 10:49:00 pm  

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