So Jay has a teleconference meeting interview thingy today.
And then, I think, he's to go to Vancouver proper for a real live interview for the second position.
And I feel like a bad girlfriend... a bad person... because there's a part of me that doesn't want him to get either job.
Like, maybe I could sabotage the teleconference interview! Research his company and find out what their core values are and then stand in the background making statements about how Jay and I hate all those things and like... don't do them.
I mean, of course I want him to do well. And yes, I'll leave him an encouraging note when I leave for work this morning, I want him to kick butt!
But I also, completely selfishly, want him to not get either job and to therefore, stay here.
I just want things to go my way.
If only that way was what also made him happiest.
Now that'd be awesome.