Thursday 23 May 2013

Sigh

Well, that was stupid.

Last night, I listened to Jay's Skype interview with the place he might be living in Vancouver.

I thought I shouldn't, but then at the last minute I thought, well, I should be part of his life and what's going on with him, so I cracked the door open to listen.

But I shouldn't have.

It was beyond hard to listen to him talking about wanting to set up a space that feels like home and to be in a place where he can build his life and feel he can come home to and nest in.

I wanted that to be here.

I feel like it was here, this last while.

So to hear him saying that that place could be this place in Vancouver stung.  Incredibly.

I shouldn't have listened.

Now I feel broken.

7 comments:

G's said...

Wouldn't it be possible to think about moving to Vancouver if things continue to go well for you guys?

Jonathan Beckett said...

:(

Happydog said...

Oh dear...is it possible these are the things one says at job interviews? To give the interviewer confidence he's in it for the long haul? Woukd you be willing to talk to him about it?

michelle said...

I am with G's - if all continues to go well with you both I see you posting from Vancouver. Transition times are hard. Hang in there.

Victoria said...

I suppose anything's possible G's....

Yeah, that's how I felt too Jonathan.

That's how I tried to steer my thinking HD, and yes, we did talk about it afterwards.

I massively, completely hate transitions michelle. Muchly.

Just Sayin... said...

Move with him!
Plus, I'm here!!! So it's not like you're going to have no one to hang out with!!! :)

1. Do what is best for YOU first.
2. The relationship second.

Not the most romantic advise, but the smartest. HOw does he feel about moving? Has he asked YOU to come with him? Weigh it all out.

I'm here if you need me, and always have the pullout for you to crash on, if needed.

xoxo

Victoria said...

Thanks JS :)

Never say never, I guess...