Wednesday, 26 June 2013
Just More Thoughts
I mean, I guess a divorce might have that same sense of missing that person being around, but to have lost them completely? Must just be devastating.
Because, yes. I miss Jay being around my apartment very much.
I hope that some day I'll just look back on it fondly for the loving, happy time we had together, but it's hard to do that right now, I'm still sad over who he turned into, and who I hope he isn't.
Like, people keep saying "oh, you deserve better" or "he's clearly a jerk" and I just don't want to believe that. What he did was jerky, and I do not deserve to be treated that way, but I still hope that was just an anomaly, and not who he is.