Some Processing I Guess

I had a not great dream that my alarm woke me up from this morning.  Which (the alarm going off) kind of made things worse.

So this was a morning dream and in it I had reconnected with my high school person.  He was kind of a crush but also not but we were close in the way teenagers can be (through phone calls late into the night and such) and I probably kind of liked him but we were both shy and so nothing happened.  We've reconnected a few times over the years via email or text or whatever but I haven't seen him since we were teens.  

Well he showed up on my dream last night.  We connected and reconnected and it was romantic (not just platonic) and felt SO so good and right and amazing.  This part of the dream was great.  Then there was another woman there?  (No idea how or why of course, it's a dream after all!) and to me it felt like they were maybe flirting?  And this made me really uncomfortable.... and then he offered to walk her out and I just knew something was going to happen (a kiss) and so I was SO hurt and devastated and before he could come back inside and before I could ask him if a kiss had happened and get some resolution about how uncool that had been and I was probably going to move on from him and us, my alarm went off.

So I never got the resolution I might have had the dream continued.  Sigh.

I still woke up hurt and sad and broken hearted and we can probably guess that this isn't *technically* about him but still.... it was nice to have the happy for a while I guess....?