I Never Felt The Same After

I don't remember what I called him here, but there was a guy I was in a relationship with a while ago and I don't think I've ever told you about something he did when we were away camping.

We were on a camping trip to one of the local forest-next-to-a-beach sites and we headed down to the beach to relax for a while.

I was sitting on the rocks and he was on a log behind me and he said something to me and when I turned around he had picked up a giant rock and made some comment ("jokingly") about how easy it would be to kill me with the rock by smashing my head in HA HA.

I... didn't find it ha ha.  I didn't find it funny at all.  Perhaps I overreacted. I don't think I overreacted at the time, I think I just told him to put it down, it wasn't funny and I didn't like it, but in my head and my heart I had a really strong negative reaction to it.

It felt unsafe.  Maybe it pointed out the vulnerability we have with others that we may not consider.  Maybe it pointed out the fact that we didn't know each other all that well yet or that maybe I didn't know him as well as I'd thought.  It was frightening.  It wasn't funny to me.

Am I silly to think this?  Was it just lighthearted?  Probably.  Would I have felt the same if it had been a female friend or was the male/female dynamic a part of it?

I still don't like recalling the moment, but I'm sure I've built it up more in my head than need be.  But just for the record, I don't think jokes about killing people are funny.  And I don't think demonstrating that joke by holding a giant rock above someone's head is funny either.  So don't make those kinds of jokes around me I guess.