Big Loud Swear Word

I am pretty close to rantingly angry right now. I'm guessing that by the time this is posted, I won't be, but as of right now? This writing? I be mad.

I've known for a while now that my ex DD is on the dating site I frequent.

Now, at a certain point, the panic of seeing him on the site was nearly enough for me to delete my entire profile and not return, but then I got over it and never came across him again.

Until right now. When I get a message saying that "this guy would like to meet you" and I click on the link and it's him.

And I know I purposely chose a photo where you wouldn't necessarily know it's me at first glance, but seriously, you don't recognize me?

But that's not the part that has me fumingly mad.

(I mean, obviously my anger comes from whatever unfinished issues my brain/heart/who knows what has with him and our breakup but... anyway)

I looked over his profile and there are a couple of things that have me mad and wanting to be really really really mean.

"I'm an excellent lover"

Ok. I'm not saying he was bad, let's be fair, but buddy never seemed to care and/or notice that I wasn't having as good of a time as I could. So to say you're an excellent lover? Unless things have changed significantly over the past few years? Isn't true.

Plus it's seriously arrogant and I'm kind of pissed that I went out with a guy who'd openly make this statement (even as a joke) online.

"I do not use drugs."

Yes you effing do.

Again, unless things have changed in the past few years and you have become a very different person, you are not only not a "social" drinker, but you are very much a drug user.

Because marijuana counts as a drug.

And you used it regularly.

Without my knowledge at first, sure, but you can not say you are not a drug user because you are the biggest drug user I have ever known and your friends (as lovely as they may have been) not only used it but grew it.

So I don't know what makes me angrier. The fact that you won't seem to disappear from my life, or the inaccuracies/blatant lies you've put in your profile.

Because, yes, you are "charming" and I know you'll charm your way into someone else's pants/heart, I just wish you were more honest with yourself and your future girlfriend about what you do behind closed doors.

And I wish you'd admit to yourself that you have a problem.

And I hope that this anger and frustration I feel right now will go the bleep away, just like I'd like you to.